Did you ever feel like holding back the ticking hands of your clock?
Recently me & my husband celebrated 4 years of Parenthood with my kid’s 4th Birthday and it was since then, that this bug caught upon me!
Parenthood – A day that makes us change in & out. It gets us out of the Bachelorhood of our married life giving a sense of responsibilities and duties. It is a day which gives a feeling of ‘belongingness’ – belonging a pie of your heart in your own hands, belonging a ‘live’ cotton ball in your arms, belonging a symbol of your love!!
We off course give birth to a baby with a view to bring them up. But as the days pass by, it is not a very good feeling for a Mother like me to see all those heart throbbing memories passing by & becoming a past. There is something we still want to re-experience, something we still want to hold close to the heart, something with which we are not content irrespective of how much we have dealt with. It gets tougher to see a bud blooming into a flower. It gets difficult to move forward.
Starting with sleepless nights and wet nappies all over, we slowly begin to use all our skills in shaping up a shapeless life! It becomes our world. Nothing else seems to be important than those newly opened eyes. The cries becomes a melody and we have someone on whom we cannot break down whatever be the matter. Kissing those soft cheeks, holding those tiny hands, brushing those soft hair locks becomes a part of life. When it comes to food, a lots of research is made….we are smart Moms, of course!!
Life changes and so do the priorities….but these changes are welcomed by one & all. The bud starts blooming into a flower, spreading its freshness & fragrances all over and attracting many bees and butterflies. It slowly becomes the center of all attentions! Work-Life balancing and smart parenting becomes a challenge! But who is now afraid of challenges when they are self-conceived!! Passing through all the stages of childhood, upgrading from nappies to denims and tricycle to bicycle, what we have is one feather in our crown- from infant & toddler, we have a Child!!
He now tries wearing his own Tee, he feeds himself, he demands!! He hides his face when I go to kiss him, he gives a strange look when I try to pat him while he naps and when I speak a broken language, he no more likes to be physically closer and runs helter-skelter when I try to squeeze him in my arms. He is growing up!! But what about the changes we have made in us? We are used to making love, getting kisses & hugs, making our clothes & hands dirty while we feed, playing for hours in the bath tub….we are spoiled by all means!!
Its a proud feeling to see him studying, playing, making choices & growing up, however, my heart aches with a feeling of not having the same soft sobbing cotton ball in my arms any more!! Just wanted to tell him…. grow up dear… but do not deprive me of the kisses & hugs which makes my each day colorful & cheerful!!
Gita Gosavi is a Networking Engineer in R&D Organization. Cooking & communicating being her hard core hobbies, she has been able to get hold of the former since the birth of her son and this article would possibly be her first step towards the latter one!!